Tuesday, 28 December 2010
You make yourself look disgusting women!
To you who I know for two years, it such a shame that you acting like a running nose kind of children. Shame on you! I should put myself way up high so that I won't see you anymore. To you who I always adore, you make me vomit when I think of you. From now on, you are an annoying anon that likes to make fake stories. So that everybody will pity for you. I could care-less about you who always think that you are 24/7 right. Beyond my wild imagination, you are a piece of thrash.
This is my weakness. Always made easy way for people to ask for apology. I'm the one who accept you to be a part of my story. I shall regret by now. What should I do to this kind of person like you? Can I tell everybody in this world that you are A S**t? god won't forgive me to this kind of blackmailing. Hehe...by the way, you can teach me how to hack people's facebook or YM!?
Shame on me because I had cried for you. Wasting my tears so that I'll looked more stupid in front of you! Wait a minute... is this kind of slander? I hope not because this women is way too much to be discovered. Am I bad? I think not because as far as I concern she is the one who ruin my life since I'm in form 5. yes,she did. And I'm the one who trapped in her fake lies that turn out to be I totally believed.
You with your biggest jealousy should fade away from my life and my best friend's life. You are more like a devil to both of us. Your mom shouldn't know who you are at the first place because she might get a heart attack to see you like this. Shame on you! How could you do this to us! Oh, maybe you wanna get more attention and you think it is not enough to be in the center of attention. I don't know what is your purposes. But we said, enough is enough.
So, our life continue as beautiful like we wish for without you. We remind ourself not to think about the past. It would bring heartache when we think about it. Go away! Go far away! We don't want to interfere. We don't want to see your face. Because your smile is fake. Please go away...
As time pass us by, you come into my life like nothing had happened. Aren't you ashamed of yourself because being so cheap? By making such a lies, you are going to repeat what you've done before. You should aware of what you are talking about. I'm not going to be foolish again. Your presence is remarkably annoying. I pretend to be as normal as I know that everybody had their own imperfection. Let me see... you are doing great with your sympathy to be sold cheaply. You are selling your own dignity, to a human called men. You have such a lowlife. I don't think you might be save by doing it.
We, the people who love you. Tried to change you, but you become from something to nothing. We are so shock with your changes. All of sudden, you become an anon to us. We don't know you anymore women! We don't know who are you! I dare to tell you, when you are mature enough don't try to ask us for apology because your sin is not for us to forgive but to god whom you've sin. My time are lesser than you think. I know that I might not live forever, I repent. I hope you do. Innamal aqmallu. Astaghfirullahal'azim.
Grown and Sexy
For about a week I haven't post anything stupid about myself. Frankly, I do love to do it. It makes me feel great about myself. My last post was about my self-assured and my biggest regret of life. Maybe out there,there are many people who had been through more complicated life than me. Each person in this world have their own faith and path. I have mine though. Many of my friend gave advises which built my self-confidence. Thanks buddy. Not to forget my beloved family for being with me when my life was ruin in a sec. Unfortunately, there are some anon (which is,i believe as not-so-close friend) tried to exploit my hope. Then again, here is Arina. Being so straight and miss doesn't-know-anything. Love to help her friends until she is way too far behind. I still have my own faith, Astaghfirullah. After the result is released, me.... Arina!!! OMG. I really can't believe what I saw back then. Disappointment, yeah! A very very veryyyyyyy baaaaadddd result. I felt that I am the most bad daughter in the whole world. Not only bad but also a killer. I have killed my parents hope. They always give high expectation. I am the one who took away those hopes. I'm sorry,i didn't mean to.
Allah still loves me. I do regret some of my wrong doing when I was in semester one. He really shows, me that sometimes when we forget about Him, He will shows us something beyond our imaginary. I really get down on my knees. My heart burst. For one whole day, I didn't felt that I'm touching the dirt. I deeply felt that I'm weak. I walked slowly reminded myself not to do something 'tact'. I really don't know what to do. Sure enough. I've lost my way because I got plans to be fulfilled. Can you feel what I feel? If yes, give me advice. If not, don't try to change what you've plan.
Everything in this world is not free. All the thing that we had, are borrow. When the time comes, we should give the thing that we've borrowed. You should believe me, believe what is karma. Dogma also. Hehe... I put a lot of effort to find my way out or to solve my studies problem. Allah will give me another chance to live. Suicidal is the crime that i did for myself. Tentatively, without a knife, I put myself to an end. Shamefully shameful to live because my besties, dahlia, aisyah, pooi sze, eti, and also tiwah. They are much better than me. I do felt far away from them in education. They are so great in everything, meanwhile me? Regardless of this, I put myself below where I can hide myself. Oh my... I got some severe illness.. self-confidence. Please... I really want to continue my degree. I know if I cry, it doesn't change a bit.
Please pray for my success. I really need it. I keep on promising. To my good friend, where are you when I need you? Are happy with what you have ? I really miss you. Can we meet each other someday? If you promise me, I'll wait because you know that I'll always be with you eventhough you are in Borneo. =)
Monday, 20 December 2010
post kali ni tulis ikut hati dan perasaan.
sebab memang dah takda mood dah. hati tawar.
so.. bila kita sentiasa rasa kita kat atas...
walaupun stadi tahap gaban.. tak semestinya kita rasa kita ni secure sangat
ingat boleh berjaya sampai dapat segulung ijazah.
now benda ni kena tempias kat muka aku. and aku sangat berduka cita
Allah maha adil... kalau Dia cakap nak, ok teruskan.
kalau cakap tak, so you've to stop.
segala penat lelah sem 1, aku dok bagai nak ghak pikir stadi...
now aku terpelanting kat belakang balik.
aku kena terima kenyataan kejuruteraan bukan milik aku..
now aku dah padamkan semangat.. aku nyalakan yg baru...
aku tahu ade peluang untuk aku tunjuk kat keluarga aku dan rakan2 yang
aku boleh buat.
aku bukan nya berseronok sangat pun kat uitm. tapi.. aku taktahu laaa..
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Saturday, 4 December 2010
Thursday, 2 December 2010
Monday, 29 November 2010
Sunday, 31 October 2010
target: gunung ledang for 5 days starting from 19th of nov
by the way, demam tak kebah. is it fine?
kene makan ubat ke pergi treatment?
i think i am strong through out this last two weeks.
seems kene depend on that machine.
he can save my life.
and im tired, but i don't wanna sleep.
im afraid that i will close my eyes for a long long time.
it is possible.
im counting my days here.
but im glad that, every day, i will meet a new person,
that i can befriend with.
Ya Allah, panjangkan Umurku.
Nama, Maizatul Akmal Bt. Md Zain. Never thought kita boleh berkawan and I never think that we are going to be friend. Bithday 23rd of august 1990. same age as me. Kelantanese from kota bharu. Sebenarnya dia ni kawan bilik kepada rakan kelas aku, Nurul Aqilah Mahadi.Emma is her nick. Sebelum ni aku hanya jumpa dia dalam kelas Circuit analysis. She is quiet yet random. Yang aku tahu dalam kelas ni dia berkawan dengan sorang budak, iaitu bekas KMNS jugak. Nama kawan rapat emma ni, Pika Sulan. She is intovert and silent. I never heard any sound that comes out from her mouth. Aku rasa tercabar bila kawan aku tak banyak cakap dan sangat tak energetic. So, I was thinking that, I wanna be her friend. Eventhough, time kita mula kawan tuh dah nak final, it is okay, cause there is two weeks left to know her well. I can judge people.
the first day that I came into qie's room. She was so.... hmmm what to say... diam dan tak banyak cakap, it seems that dia nak avoid everybody. In fact, mase nak cakap dengan dia, mulut pun malas nak bukak. I tried to understand the way she communicate. I never regret in everything that I did. Aku teruskan ape yang aku buat. I keep on talking to her. Sepatah aku tanya sepatah dia jawab. This is not the way she treat me. Mase kat fakulti, we were on the same lift, and I asked her, do I know you, and she said NO. okay, we were on the same floor and in the same lecture room. NOW I KNOW THAT we are classmate. What a dumbass. I giggled.
I kept on asking qie about emma. To me, she is something to be treasured. Idk.this is the thing that I felt. The feeling that I felt at 4 am 31st oct. dah 2 minggu rasanya aku kenal dia. Macam2 perkara jadi. It is not bad nor good. It's simple. Happy. Aku tak paksa diri aku untuk berkawan dengan emma, tapi the way she attract me to know her better is the main point here. I never listen, I just watch and watch. I do believe in karma. If we were meant to be friend, I know God's job is to full-filled it.
I never thought that I will easily share part of my stories to her, as if we know each other very well. Comfortable,can I use this word? Sometimes I felt welcome. Eager to meet her at the first place. Masa dia on the phone, I actually tak berniat pun nak dengar, tapi dia cakap loghat kelantan, mana aku paham! Conclusion, kena makan budu. Hehe.. gurau.
She is taller than I am. I laughed. Her life... in front of her laptop, her room, boyfriend and scandal/s, DC, eat and sleep. Frankly, dia pandai. Cumaaaaaa, dia MALAS. Dia suka belajar masa tak ramai orang, or orang tengah tidur. She was easily distracted with it, I mean people. Her favourite color is red, banyak barang2 dia warna merah. And the pic that I uploaded also, red baju kurung, you see?
To be frankly twice, dia friendly. Full-hearted, enjoyable, great listener, miss know-secret,nice eyes, cool to be part of her friend, and banyak missed communication, miss understanding. Aku suka kawan dengan dia, and I hope the same respond suppose to be. Emma, im glad to know you at the first place, hehe...
I hope you are fine inside me. Its been a week you were unhealthy, maybe because of reckless diet that I have been doing lately. Or is it because of your exercise schedule that are too challenging for you to beat? I, I mean your owner is concern about you. Please tell me what you need. Because your beat, I mean our heartbeat is too fast... it happens when ;
1- one morning walk,down the street when I bumped into a guy who was totally hot and gorgeous pig, all of sudden my breath become so heavy as if I could die in a second. and YOU! Why are you so dumb ass... are you trying to kill me? When the guy passed us by... I was smacking my chest for several times to make you realized how fast did you beat.! Ohhh my god. This is so annoying. I don't know what is happening to you inside me. I have to remind you that we are sharing the lifetime. You heard me heart.!
2- one nice lunch, near to my office block... I don't know that the hot guy, should we put a name for this cutie pie? Okay I will call him Eric. This Eric guy was walking towards us. How many times do I have to advice you PLEASE BEAT AS USUAL, LIKE A NORMAL HEART. I was like a noob, tried to cover my shaky little heart so that he would not embarrassed me in front of Eric. I was so nervous when he approached me. DUB DAB DUB DAB... what is happening to you heart? Are you jealous because of Eric? Are you gay? He sat in front of me. We talked to each other about the 'bump' day. I choked my food because I was too excited with the unexpected gift from god.. wait up did I mention his real name. This is totally out of my mind, our mind... and his mind too maybe. I was laughing to death because his name is ERIC. For god sake. What a coincidence.
3- one late night after the Juliet Simms concert, to my Lamborghini kelisa car... I felt so uneasy. Is it because of the shouting or mossing? I hope not. We are doing fine here. But you heart... why are you giving me such a hard time? I was confused with you. There are crowd here and everywhere. All I can think is Eric. My silver lining dream. Hey.. In the crowd, I saw someone walked near me. The way he walked, I just noticed that it is Eric guy. He is so natural. So unpredictable. So mesmerizing. I can't barely moved, my legs got locked up. He smiled. My heart thumped.
I am trapped between my feeling and ego. My leg started to walk towards Eric. If this is Love, why it should be this way? I'm not expert in this kind of situation, I knew god knows that I can't handle this alone. Please give me strength. Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I Love. This should be okay. I kept this in my head;
when we think of the one that we loved;
like a bolt from the blue...
all thing got messed up
and to settle it back
to find the missing puzzle,
all we have to do
is to love and to be loved.
I have to make an end. So that I wouldn't be confused with this feeling. And fighting with my own ego. When Eric started to talk, I stood in front of him. My ear, listen. My mouth, shut. All I can see was his face,calm.
Friday, 3 September 2010
you seem like an amazing person and i admire your strength and beauty.
just thought i would let you know!
To whom it may concern,
your wish had granted . Now , you can escape from the people that you wanted to stay away . I think you've satisfied with this kind of living . You are now thousand miles away from me . You can't turn back . I wear this mask for 4 years from now , to hide all the sadness . So that you'll know that I am fine and great to stand on my own . So masochistic . I found my strength to carry on . I'm surrounded by the people who loved to be with me and accept who I am . Unlike you , I think . You deserve better than this , you are one in a million that people want to be with . Everything that comes out from you , pulls me through . When you walked away , such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced by me . But , the way the pain slipped into my body , its linger around me , makes me think how many times I felt this . Now , my door won't fit you through . What could I give you now . I'm still the same tale . We are burning each other though we are dying for more . Just put your dagger now . I'm already dead . I'm a dead corpse who live her imperfect . I think the consequences of this , both of us , the people , the loved ones aren't satisfied with this distance . I'll be missing you , will you miss me too ? . my stomach feel sick , bitter and open reveries of helplessness .
I'm not pretending that we are okay. Because you keep all the secret that have been kept years ago . Now , tell me what I did wrong ? I just cant play with all the feeling that I felt for you . It will gives me a hard time . I'm choking because I'm hardly swallowed the word . I cried , I swept away every tears that I've cried and I swear this was your choice . Please save me from falling with the sound of your voice . I'll will miss your every moment . I'll miss your perfect beautiful selfishness . I'm a hopeless romantic . I'm in love with you and you just don't get it ? So, I sit here... finding a way to solve my mild depression . I can sort it out myself . I can trigger myself . After all... I'm a “great” in pretending . Surrounded but still lonely . I swear . This can't change everything until the end of time . I'm desperate for change . This won't help me neither . My life becomes tantrum . Because I'm (sad)glad you went away . I never told you …that
I love to sing a song for you with my old hug-able guitar,
I love to hang around with you and play for one whole day
I love when you scream shout swearing at me
I run to you when I'm down
I let you know everything that happen everyday
I love to talk to you
I love the way we laugh
I hate the way you cry
I wanna share everything to you
I love it when you smack me out from the bed
I love when __________________ .
I love when we have a chit chat outside of the room
I hate that I miss you million times
I love to sing along with you
I love it when you spoon feed me
I love to watch you sleep.
I like the way you look at me
I like it when we talk and suddenly you laugh
I like to piggy back you
I like everything about you
I'm not desperate to make you come back to me , I'm just wanna tell you , this what I've been through . Because I'm so numb in everything . Perhaps , this is the last time we met . Because we will never meet again . If God love us , He will make us see each other . This is the end of happiness . Temporary happiness that might let me down , because I give such a high hope for a hopeless thing . I'm just glad that I'm dead , everywhere I go . The figure of you won't chase me anymore . I will haunt you . I'll be there wherever you go . I will protect you , so will be safe under my spirit . The sadness will easily fade away when you started to cry , I've already wipe your tears with my bear hand . I will wipe it softly . I will make you happy . I will make you gay . Don't be sad , because I hate to see all this from you . It made me hurt .
Sunday, 29 August 2010
Saturday, 29 May 2010
20th of june. Approximately a month from now onwards. I think my life will be busy as you can see the wedding planner in the tv box. The house is still on renovation. Still cant get my private life to be more 'wow'. no. I feel so mothereffing bored. Now... I have to stay home because the guy from electrical company, idk what the fuck it is... but is should get the electric flow by now. Dont know what to do. I have no license, and my papa bubu adviced me to be patient. For how long??? I cant wait with all this. I can live without money, friends, family and enjoyment.
My baju kurung, 3 set all of 'em. Idk what to wear because too many choice. But still the baju kurung are not completely finish. Hehe. =)
I should make my tumblr in private. Or should I open a private diary on the internet. I am so lazy dumbass to write what's happening in my life. It is not because I dont wanna tell or what but... I just dont know.
There is a quote I can share with myself... 'memang tak dapat lah kalau malas' on other words.. you will not get anything if you are lazy. Im writing is getting lame old and boring.
Btw... my house is soooooooooooo mothereffing hot. With the natural breeze that come inside the house should relief the hot-a-meter of my body. Soon fucker. Byebye phat ass.
1. sob sob sob...
3. tisk tiskk iskkk
lost? No direction? Compass needle is broken? Need some clue? Advisor?
Everything is under control. You just need some calmness to fix your heart out. ok. Just now angah treat me papparich. Kinda cool that place was. But something came up. That waiter guy was so freak one. Hahaha.. I don't mean to give him a nickname but I did. His name is pappadom. Agaga...
pappadom is the waiter and I am the customer. AKU BUKAN PELANGGAN TETAP DIA!!
ok. the main point here. I came there to enjoy MY supper. To drink some milo dinosour. With the present of my siblings; angah,hani and aiman. Everything was under control AGAIN. Hakhak.
That pappadom guy bring me the meal that I've ordered. Kuey tiaw something idk the exact name.. all I got is melantak appetite. The supper was superb. The kuey tiaw got some prawn and chicken flesh. I just can't imagine the soup is sooooooooooo delicious. Slurppp~
back to the story. When papadom served me `my delicacy`. He was sort of like asking me that; why i've not coming to enjoy the food at papparich for a month. But as for my concern... it is my first time to eat at the resto. And keep asking the same question about three times. And for your information... my blur syndrome have been attacking me since he kept asking me the same freak question. And I kept nodding. Cuz I dont what the hell he was talking about. Funny situation is it? Try to be in my shoes.
In the middle of enjoying the pleasure of the esplanade. papadom came to our table and asked angah. Is it hani, her daughter or sister. Angah answered his question ' oh ni anak saya'.. I was mothereff laughing. Then he kept asking the same question. Angah tried to convince him that hani is her daughter. Wakaka~ so funny. The thing is; angah is so petite and innocent, so papadom wasnt satisfy with the answer given.
Oh not to forget. The combodian worker. So handsome. Hakhak. But I think I tried to approach him as for example.. okey. It was not an example.. it really really happened. Huhuk. I was asking for a new tissue box because the tissue inside the box has finished. I was really confused what to call him so I 'eh eh... tissue'. Thank god the cambodian knew my body language. Agaga.. and after the combodian left us to get a new one, I was thinking that the man was so attractive. Am I not interested in malay gentlemen? It is not okay. This is teenage mind her own ' mental illness' business. I should avoid this kind of activity. In fact yeah he issssss gorgeous. I should change my appetite.
Right now my brain is blunt to tell a story. I should stop here because the environment is noisy and no tranquility.
Tuesday, 11 May 2010
setiap orang akan merasa mati.dah hilang teman baru terkial-kial nak cari. Baru terasa kehilangan dia. Apakah? Don't blame other people bila semua ni dah berlaku. Blame diri sendiri sebab tak pandai jaga hubungan dengan manusia. Yeah, of course. Jap... post kali ni kaitan dengan manusia. So nak relate dengan keagamaan takut salah tafsir. So tak berani nak beri apa-apa santapan nurani kat sini. But I would like to give some quote, something for us to remember;
“kematian adalah nasihat terbaik dan guru kehidupan,
sedikit saja kita lengah dari memikirkan kematian,
maka kita akan kehilangan guru terbaik dalam kehidupan.”
orang islam wajib mengambil berat antara satu sama lain
Dari Huzaifah bin Al-Yamman r.a , katanya : Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda : “ Sesiapa yang tidak mahu mengambil berat akan urusan orang-orang islam , maka dia tidak termasuk dari kalangan mereka , dan sesiapa yang tidak suka menasihat / menegur untuk kerana Allah atau rasulnya atau kitabnya ( mengenai ketaatan kepada Allah dan rasulnya serta panduan al-Quran ) , atau kepada ketua-ketua ( pemimpin-pemimpin islam ) , dan untuk sekalian orang islam , maka dia tidak termasuk dari kalangan mereka”( orang islam )
ok I just did it. Picisan saje. Hadith sahih yep. Agaga... aikh...
kehilangan sangat menyakitkan lagi relatives or family members. I shall not remember this. It hurts me. It takes time to heal the wound. Muka je nampak ganas tapi hati ade taman. Hehe.. ADNAN SEMPIT punya tagline. Dah 2 minggu setengah kat rumah. Macam-macam berlaku. But everything that comes out semua FAMILY. Lebih baik aku habiskan masa aku dengan family before aku continue studies. But then .. I have many plan soon... with my close friends and classmates masa sekolah teknik dulu. Dah 2 tahun lebih tak jumpa. Nak pi kayak kat D R FOREST CAMP, chinchin,melaka. And my STLES geng masa f4 before I went for boarding school,we plan nak pi port dickson for one day. Ni pun dah lama tak hang out. Aku jelah. Dorang dah many time kot. Aku tahu bila aku pergi. so... nak make my time worth it. Hahaha. =)
hopefully jadi kenyataaaaannnn!!! amin
Saturday, 8 May 2010
terpinga2... ..bertanya. ....
"Aper hal ngan awak nih....kenapa awak ketuk kepala saya??....si isteri pun menjawap.... "nah! awak tengok nih....sambil menunjukkan secebis kertas yg tertulis nama....'Mary' ....si isteri tentula menyangka si suami mempunyai kekasih lain yg bernama Mary....dgn tenang si suami menjawab.... ooo....itu nama kuda yg saya bertaruh semalam..... namanya Mary.....si isteri pun agak puashati ngan penjelasan suaminya..terus menyambung kerja di dapur.....
Selang seminggu berlaku ketika si suami sedang rehat2 membaca suratkhabar seperti selalu.... PANG!!!....kali ini dengan lebih kuat lagi!....si suami pun bertanya.... aper hal plak awak ketuk kepala saya kali nih???...dengan selamba..si isteri menjawap.... "kuda awak telefon!!".. ...
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
this is my address where it isn't completely finished. Apparently this house was under-construction and it is quite noisy here. I have bad feeling about having insomnia because of my eldest sister, Hani. She is disrupting my sleeping hours now. From 7 hours it turns to 5 hours. Those 5 hours sleep rate are not a constant sleep. Every half hours, I'll woke up and felt that a leg on my head or snored. It getting on my nerves. And my nerves are going to split into two without her prior knowledge. We will see about that sistah!
What would you do if u see many dust on your keyboard? Now im having a hard time because my house now full of dust. My lungs is not healthy as it is. Please finished my home ASAP. I need all the privacy that I dream of. Back to the story...
the house is 50 percent to be completed. Wiring to be done here. And the gate is going to be repaired sooner or later. My family and I will be happy. And lastly the Along's family going to be here after the house has finish the renovation. Irfan.. wait for us OK. I'll going to meet you. Grow up. Start crawling adik.
There are 5-7 Indonesian workers who involved in this renovation. Haha the most hilarious moment was.. “adik, huchan dhi luar... angkat bachu”. Im smiling when he said that to me.
Now, we have two home in this site. I guess. By the way, I miss my old guitar where I can play it freely without distraction from anyone. I do love to play him. I do wanna people to listen to what I strummed. But all this not going to happen in my home sweet home. NEVER. Consequently... I have to wait this moment about two months and a half. I have to sacrifice everything. Including my time to hang out with my friend. I'm a miserable teenagers who feels that life is so tough. But I've all grown up. I have said this magic words about three thousand times a day. Why? Why this always happen to me when my friend/s wanna hang out with me, there are alwaysssss NOT-GOING so called answer.
I tried to make my activities alive. I over-slept. I counted the dot on my skins. I looked around the house. I scratched my face. My pimples that annoy me, I watched tv. I made mistakes... yeah. I ate pills. Seldom. People/human/homo-sapient are not puuurrr-fect. I made ppl mad about me. I am obnoxious. Agree? I think I am that OB.
I thought this life is so so so so wonderful to live. Maybe my writing just to make me feel relax. To shout everything inside. To exothermic anything that is so hot inside. To purify the things that are muddy inside. To fasten anything that slows me up. To recover back whats hurting me inside. To make me look cool instead craziness that I always did. To melody my heart that are so lonely without chords. To make me feel better... the only thing I knew is to eat my heart out. UNTIL “OMG! I LOOKED FAT, TUMMY THERE TUMMY HERE, IMBALANCED EMOTIONAL ENCOUNTERED, UNCONTROLABLE EATING HEAVY FOOD LATE AT NIGHT.” called my friend, wrote at the status, sleeper. haha... im done.
U could've respect me because IM FAT. When im walking, I felt ppl looking at me and said “ekh ekh.. tengok tu, gemuknya budak tu, dah la jalan macam berudu, pastu dia kena buat makeover. Ekh.. kenapa dia makan sambil jalan. Eee.. tak sopannya. You, tengok tu you, budak ni macam parasite”. Haha..saje je nak make things worst than usual. Kita kita!.
Self-conscious ada. PIKIR LA SENDIRI. I ada otak. So suka I la nak cakap apa. Ni blog I. So? Ada masalah.? Leave me alone if you feel that im not compatible with your style. I am what I am. Sure enough you know yourself much better than I am. Just tell me, im talkative... I will try to listen and shut my mouth. Good. So now u know who is your daddy. Believe me. I will regret what I wrote. Haha.. semua ni just nak luahkan jep. Sebab... its been KACAU PEMIKIRAN AKU SAMPAI AKU NAIK GILA,AKU DOWN,TAK HAPPY,HIDUP ENTAH APE2 and much more. BILA RUMAH AKU NAK SIAP! KURANGKAN NYANYI BOLEH TAK ABG INDON. Tak kesian ke kat aku... aku penat la nak dengar semua bunyi2 ni.
p/s: im cold. Hot choc ada? Kawan ke kita ni? A text a day or a phone call a sec. The motive are... to make myself clear that we are not lost in contact and far far away from never land. Im dying. So im sorry. Scar healed. If u feel that I am disturbing yours... tell me. Sure it hurts but don't lie.