Sunday, 31 October 2010

Dear Heart,

I hope you are fine inside me. Its been a week you were unhealthy, maybe because of reckless diet that I have been doing lately. Or is it because of your exercise schedule that are too challenging for you to beat? I, I mean your owner is concern about you. Please tell me what you need. Because your beat, I mean our heartbeat is too fast... it happens when ;

1- one morning walk,down the street when I bumped into a guy who was totally hot and gorgeous pig, all of sudden my breath become so heavy as if I could die in a second. and YOU! Why are you so dumb ass... are you trying to kill me? When the guy passed us by... I was smacking my chest for several times to make you realized how fast did you beat.! Ohhh my god. This is so annoying. I don't know what is happening to you inside me. I have to remind you that we are sharing the lifetime. You heard me heart.!

2- one nice lunch, near to my office block... I don't know that the hot guy, should we put a name for this cutie pie? Okay I will call him Eric. This Eric guy was walking towards us. How many times do I have to advice you PLEASE BEAT AS USUAL, LIKE A NORMAL HEART. I was like a noob, tried to cover my shaky little heart so that he would not embarrassed me in front of Eric. I was so nervous when he approached me. DUB DAB DUB DAB... what is happening to you heart? Are you jealous because of Eric? Are you gay? He sat in front of me. We talked to each other about the 'bump' day. I choked my food because I was too excited with the unexpected gift from god.. wait up did I mention his real name. This is totally out of my mind, our mind... and his mind too maybe. I was laughing to death because his name is ERIC. For god sake. What a coincidence.

3- one late night after the Juliet Simms concert, to my Lamborghini kelisa car... I felt so uneasy. Is it because of the shouting or mossing? I hope not. We are doing fine here. But you heart... why are you giving me such a hard time? I was confused with you. There are crowd here and everywhere. All I can think is Eric. My silver lining dream. Hey.. In the crowd, I saw someone walked near me. The way he walked, I just noticed that it is Eric guy. He is so natural. So unpredictable. So mesmerizing. I can't barely moved, my legs got locked up. He smiled. My heart thumped.

I am trapped between my feeling and ego. My leg started to walk towards Eric. If this is Love, why it should be this way? I'm not expert in this kind of situation, I knew god knows that I can't handle this alone. Please give me strength. Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I Love. This should be okay. I kept this in my head;

when we think of the one that we loved;

like a bolt from the blue...

all thing got messed up

and to settle it back

to find the missing puzzle,

all we have to do

is to love and to be loved.

I have to make an end. So that I wouldn't be confused with this feeling. And fighting with my own ego. When Eric started to talk, I stood in front of him. My ear, listen. My mouth, shut. All I can see was his face,calm.



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