Friday, 3 September 2010

don't ever let claustrophobia in

i think you are extremely beautiful, and strong to have to put up with the amount of shit you receive from the stupid anons. don't ever let them try and bring you down, they're trying to make you stoop to their level, and most are extremely jealous of you. your eyes are absolutely gorgeous, you have hair people would kill to have, and the way you carry yourself is something to be admired. if anyone ever insults you, you put up the 'I STILL DON'T GIVE A F' and i admire that you don't let these people bug you or bring down your confidence. if anything they are sitting on their fat asses creeping you wishing with all their heart that they could look even half as pretty as you are.

you seem like an amazing person and i admire your strength and beauty.

just thought i would let you know!
have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you had not met that one person?

sincerely, it would be "awesome"

Sometimes,no matter how much you want things to happen, all you can do is wait….


To whom it may concern,

your wish had granted . Now , you can escape from the people that you wanted to stay away . I think you've satisfied with this kind of living . You are now thousand miles away from me . You can't turn back . I wear this mask for 4 years from now , to hide all the sadness . So that you'll know that I am fine and great to stand on my own . So masochistic . I found my strength to carry on . I'm surrounded by the people who loved to be with me and accept who I am . Unlike you , I think . You deserve better than this , you are one in a million that people want to be with . Everything that comes out from you , pulls me through . When you walked away , such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced by me . But , the way the pain slipped into my body , its linger around me , makes me think how many times I felt this . Now , my door won't fit you through . What could I give you now . I'm still the same tale . We are burning each other though we are dying for more . Just put your dagger now . I'm already dead . I'm a dead corpse who live her imperfect . I think the consequences of this , both of us , the people , the loved ones aren't satisfied with this distance . I'll be missing you , will you miss me too ? . my stomach feel sick , bitter and open reveries of helplessness .

I'm not pretending that we are okay. Because you keep all the secret that have been kept years ago . Now , tell me what I did wrong ? I just cant play with all the feeling that I felt for you . It will gives me a hard time . I'm choking because I'm hardly swallowed the word . I cried , I swept away every tears that I've cried and I swear this was your choice . Please save me from falling with the sound of your voice . I'll will miss your every moment . I'll miss your perfect beautiful selfishness . I'm a hopeless romantic . I'm in love with you and you just don't get it ? So, I sit here... finding a way to solve my mild depression . I can sort it out myself . I can trigger myself . After all... I'm a “great” in pretending . Surrounded but still lonely . I swear . This can't change everything until the end of time . I'm desperate for change . This won't help me neither . My life becomes tantrum . Because I'm (sad)glad you went away . I never told you …that

  1. I love to sing a song for you with my old hug-able guitar,

  2. I love to hang around with you and play for one whole day

  3. I love when you scream shout swearing at me

  4. I run to you when I'm down

  5. I let you know everything that happen everyday

  6. I love to talk to you

  7. I love the way we laugh

  8. I hate the way you cry

  9. I wanna share everything to you

  10. I love it when you smack me out from the bed

  11. I love when __________________ .

  12. I love when we have a chit chat outside of the room

  13. I hate that I miss you million times

  14. I love to sing along with you

  15. I love it when you spoon feed me

  16. I love to watch you sleep.

  17. I like the way you look at me

  18. I like it when we talk and suddenly you laugh

  19. I like to piggy back you

  20. I like everything about you

I'm not desperate to make you come back to me , I'm just wanna tell you , this what I've been through . Because I'm so numb in everything . Perhaps , this is the last time we met . Because we will never meet again . If God love us , He will make us see each other . This is the end of happiness . Temporary happiness that might let me down , because I give such a high hope for a hopeless thing . I'm just glad that I'm dead , everywhere I go . The figure of you won't chase me anymore . I will haunt you . I'll be there wherever you go . I will protect you , so will be safe under my spirit . The sadness will easily fade away when you started to cry , I've already wipe your tears with my bear hand . I will wipe it softly . I will make you happy . I will make you gay . Don't be sad , because I hate to see all this from you . It made me hurt .