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Selamat tinggal kenangan. 14 april 2010.

KMNS. Dah letih aku kat sana. Nevertheless... tempat ni je dapat hang out ngan kawan. I have a few friends kat neighbourhood ni,which I called bestfriend. Tapi dorang dah jauh.3 days I cried. It is not because I felt unhappy, tapi the memory that made me cry. Almost every night kot. And the last time aku nangis after naik dari bilik Q. aku gilaaaaa rasa bersalah. Entah. Aku bukan kawan yg baik untuk semua. Dan aku bukan sempurna untuk jadi kawan sesiapa.

Lagu last ni dari frank sinatra – my way. Arghh.. sedih. Memang sedih. Kenapa aku ni miserable sangat. Im heartless? Not anymore. Aku gila rindu kat anati. Eventhough kitorang kawan kejap, but the time that we spend together really made us close. Dia mentor fizik aku. Yeay... nanti kita keluar yep anati. Kau pun nangis teruk kan? Aku tak dapat nangis sebab malam tuh aku dah nangis depan kau sambil buat maths exercise. Meleleh2 air mata aku. Kau boleh kata kenapa? Ahah.. kan kau dah nangis macam budak kencing malam.

Roomates... thx. Korang jap yang sedia terima aku balik. Entahlah. Banyak kot menda blaku kat kita. Iela nad dayah. And lastly me, arina. We've been through a lot. Aku sayang korang. Lagi2 iela. Aku kuat sakat dia dalam bilik. Thx bawak barang2 aku turun dari bilik. Tingkat 4 lak tuh. Nanti datang umah aku. Aku amek kau kat stesyen bas k. kau kan anak angkat family aku. Agaga.

To lecturers. Aku bukan nyer student yg baik sangat. Kerap ponteng kelas. Tapi aku bukan tidur. Tapi aku gi library. Jahat pun ada la jugak. Pernah try main mercun (tak pandai main pun) and main kejar2 ngan pak guard. Panjat2 bangunan. Panjat loji. Masuk asrama lelaki(masa pdt) haha... lawak2. Jngn risau. Aku still ade self-consious. I do have dignity. Itu je nak buat nampak kenangan tu diabadikan. Bonda, sorry kacau bonda pukul 2-3 pagi. Main gitar semua tuh. Jerit2. Main kejar2. Aku anak kau yg paling nakal kat asrama nih. Aku rasa aku tak penah kantoi ponteng kuliah. Aku ade team nak ponteng kuliah... tuh sebab best. Ohh.. forgot. Amor. Team memusnahkan diri sendiri. Kalau nak buat jahat kekadang ngan dia lah. Never been forgotton.

Xpdt-ian. Kita takkan berpecah. Selagi kita hidup. Kita karok k. skema2 aku pun boleh jerit macam iron maiden, placebo and serj tankian. Segala lepak2 kat cafe and stadi group time pdt and pst diharap halalkan. Korang ade yg tak kenal aku and kenal aku... kita facebook aja ok! Semoga Allah berkati kita semua. Xpdt batch kita berjaya sampai kita jumpa 5tahun akan datang. Btw... siapa2 yang kahwin awal tu. Buat invitation kat kitorang.

Pst. Hopefully we will meet again. Selagi aku hidup. Kita will keep in touch ok. Tapi tak macam dulu ar. Selalu jep aku rempuh masuk bilik korang. Buat2 macam bilik aku. Haha.. nakal nyer aku. Budak kelas F2P1. Sorry sebab tak meng'invloved”kan diri aku kat dalam aktiviti kelas. Alahai.. aku still ingat lagi pepatah fee kat aku. “aikh kak rina, hidup lagi rupanya.” wow! Aku suka ayat tuh. Yelah.. sebaik hidup lagi. Kang tadapt jumpa korang lagi. Terima lah pelukan dari akak yg nakal ni. Hugs.

Budak aras. Really missed the old us. Sorry sebab tak spend time together masa korang ada lagi kat kmns. Akak dapat satu pengajaran untuk diri sendiri. Akak tak dapat tumpukan perhatian kat belajar akak. Akak blame diri sendiri smpai korang pun akak lupa. Ups 1 akak punya result teruk, fizik akak dapat failed. Tak tahu mana salah masa ups 1 tuh. Then akak dah jarang cakap ngan korang start tuh akak dah jarang duduk bilik and spend time kat library. Akak banyak main2 dulu. Akak ingat setakat datang kuliah semua tuh... dapat ape yg akak nak. Tapi tak. And... masa pspm 1.. I mananged to cover back my cgpa. Sorry. Sorry. But the scar will always remain.
Parents and siblings. Sorry susahkan kamu semua since 1990. kakbi nak mintak ampun kat mak abah. Kakbi tahu kakbi banyak susahkan mak and abah. I've all grown up. I know good and bad side of me. Thanks cuz thought me bout LIFE. Along, angah, acik, abg and baby... please do understand me.

Frank sinatra- my way

and now...
the end is near
and so I face the final curtain.
My friends, i'll say it clear.
I'll state my case of which im certain.
I've live a life that's full
i've travelled each and every highway
and more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets? I have a few, but then again
to few to mention,
I did what I had to do
and saw it thru without exemption.
I planned each charted course
each careful step along the byway
and more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes there were times, im sure u knew,
when I bit off more than I could chew,
but thru it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall
and did it my way...

i've loved,i've laughed and cried
i've had my fill- my share of losing
but now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing
to think I did all that
and may I say, not in a shy way
oh no. oh no. not me.
I did it my way

for what is a man?
What has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
to say the things he trully feels
and not the words of one who kneels
the record shows, I took the blows
and did it my way
yes it was my way.