red hot emotional day.

RED HOT EMOTIONAL DAY

Anger. This habit should fade away when I don’t feel like to do anything. I hate myself when I can’t control my inner self. I have one way to calm this pressure to lower. It’s hid myself inside the room and play guitar or laid myself on my bed while listening to the music roll. That’s why I said, I’m an unpredictable person. I feel free to get away and walk away from people because I can get eye sore and become more unpredictable. This brain is malfunction , have problem to send its signal to my bodeyhhhh… (~-~)V

Arina 1: kau tak rasa kau patut chill out?

Arina 2: yeap, I’m chilling myself inside the refrigerator.

Arina 1: why all of sudden changing to be someone else?

Arina 2: why bother to ask?

Arina 1: just asking. Chill out.

Arina 2: takde ayat lain nak guna dah. Chill out this word out from this world.boleh?

Arina 1: jom tengok transformer?

Arina 2: I have better plan to sort of.

Arina 1: what is it?

Arina 2: gunung ledang heckyeah!

Arina 1: how about your family decision?

Arina 2: I don’t care sebab aku pergi sana pun bukan nak bergembira, I have my own mission, GPMS.

Arina 1: GPMS?

Arina 2: iyalah, GROWUP PEOPLE MAKE SENSE (GPMS)

Arina 1: Are you trying to kid me?

Arina 2: Gabungan Pelajar Melayu Semenanjung lah!!!

Arina 1: oh right.

Arina 2: selagi orang tak tahu apa yg kita buat, baik senyap. Maybe aku lurus orangnya, tapi…

Arina 1: aku nak cari ilmu dengan kawan2 GPMS aku kat sana.? Is it?

Arina 2: takkan takda tempat lain?

Arina 1: ADE!!! TAPI SELALU TAK DIBERI PELUANG. ORANG YANG KENA BUANG MACAM AKU PATUT KENA BUANG MASYARAKAT MACAM PENAGIH DADAH! BOLEH AKU CAKAP CAMTU? NI YANG AKU RASA! ****!

Tak rasa ke aku ni sarcastic? Siapa arina 1 and arina 2? Orang yang sama dan tak tahu nak gali kubur sendiri sudah. Seorang perempuan yang hidup dengan dunia dia sendiri.

P/s: penagih dadah pun sekarang dapat peluang KEDUA no no maybe berpuluh2 kali peluang untuk hidup semula? Aku ade buat dosa besar ke sampai orang tak boleh terima kebodohan ni? There is a saying; jangan jadi orang berfikiran negative, tapi cuba pikir on the other side, apa salah aku sampai orang dah tak boleh percaya aku boleh buat semula? I got this one friend of mine; she told me a story, real one about her teacher who took exam STPM several times because she failed. At last, she managed to overtook her fear and become successful. Can somebody please be possible and have faith in what I do?

Every time, aku nak pakai stoking, orang pandang aku. “ekh boleh ke minah ni pakai stoking? Bukan ke koyak nanti stoking tu,dah la gemuk macam ayam suntik. Er, aku takut la nak tengok dia pakai stoking tu”. Well, hello! Ni stoking aku. Suka aku lah nak pakai ke tak? Nak kena makan penampar, mai sini. Aku dah bersedia 21 tahun yang lepas. Get off from my feet dumbass. Thank you. Sayonara ~-~