you made me love babies.

my 5months old nephew.

new start.

i think when the sun stop shining. the last person that i want to be with is mr bean. ahaha. he will make me laugh my ass off. until there is no tears falling down from my eyes. he will not getting me down on my knee unless like ‘somebody’. pfft

– arina ahmad =)

.bliss.

-finished-

The house is completely finished. But I think my parents will buy something to furnish the hall. Let them do all the house work. My siblings are sooooooo mothereffing lazy lion. I did it. I do all the shifting and lifting the stuff inside the house. It was so tiring. But I knew I had loss a kilo of fats in my arse. And now… I just got injuries all over my body. My skin are so painful as if it is burned.



“sometimes I wish I could fix you, take away all of your pain and all of your pain and all of your hate and ignorance; and just give you blue skies in a pill bottle and tell you that is is okay to overdose. Would you be happy then?”

somesortofheartwarming

I am not sighing because of the HARDWORK that I’ve done. There is no appreciation there. no. no. I dont need any of it. In my mind… I think of a spa. Yeah. To rejuvenate myself again. Actually im tired.

“ I dare you to rip your heart out everyday and pretend that you dont feel a thing. I dare you to rip your heart out and let it bleed until it is dry and then I dare you to make it beat one more time”

somesortofheartwarming

I am weak. I am strong. I am fragile.
Ignorance Is Bliss.
I need hugs.
I need excitement.
I need you love.
Let me breath in you.
For a moment I can tell I got you.
I love you.
You have put a spell over me.
Why do I fell in love with you.
Can you just leave me without hurting me in too deep.

I smile for you. I laugh for you. You are my marijuana that I would addicted with.

Can I see your face?

i’m going to crawl into a hole and die.

if i die tonight! i would smile and fly away from everything and EVERYONE.

p/s: kenapa signals and systems susah sangat nak paham!!!!

never told your problems to anyone;

20% dont care

and the other 80% are glad you have them.

say No to stress

Angah's wedding.

20th of june. Approximately a month from now onwards. I think my life will be busy as you can see the wedding planner in the tv box. The house is still on renovation. Still cant get my private life to be more 'wow'. no. I feel so mothereffing bored. Now... I have to stay home because the guy from electrical company, idk what the fuck it is... but is should get the electric flow by now. Dont know what to do. I have no license, and my papa bubu adviced me to be patient. For how long??? I cant wait with all this. I can live without money, friends, family and enjoyment.

My baju kurung, 3 set all of 'em. Idk what to wear because too many choice. But still the baju kurung are not completely finish. Hehe. =)

I should make my tumblr in private. Or should I open a private diary on the internet. I am so lazy dumbass to write what's happening in my life. It is not because I dont wanna tell or what but... I just dont know.

There is a quote I can share with myself... 'memang tak dapat lah kalau malas' on other words.. you will not get anything if you are lazy. Im writing is getting lame old and boring.

Btw... my house is soooooooooooo mothereffing hot. With the natural breeze that come inside the house should relief the hot-a-meter of my body. Soon fucker. Byebye phat ass.

bapak kaya

No where to go~...

1. sob sob sob...
2. crying...
3. tisk tiskk iskkk
4. uwaaaa~~

lost? No direction? Compass needle is broken? Need some clue? Advisor?
Everything is under control. You just need some calmness to fix your heart out. ok. Just now angah treat me papparich. Kinda cool that place was. But something came up. That waiter guy was so freak one. Hahaha.. I don't mean to give him a nickname but I did. His name is pappadom. Agaga...

pappadom is the waiter and I am the customer. AKU BUKAN PELANGGAN TETAP DIA!!
ok. the main point here. I came there to enjoy MY supper. To drink some milo dinosour. With the present of my siblings; angah,hani and aiman. Everything was under control AGAIN. Hakhak.

That pappadom guy bring me the meal that I've ordered. Kuey tiaw something idk the exact name.. all I got is melantak appetite. The supper was superb. The kuey tiaw got some prawn and chicken flesh. I just can't imagine the soup is sooooooooooo delicious. Slurppp~

back to the story. When papadom served me `my delicacy`. He was sort of like asking me that; why i've not coming to enjoy the food at papparich for a month. But as for my concern... it is my first time to eat at the resto. And keep asking the same question about three times. And for your information... my blur syndrome have been attacking me since he kept asking me the same freak question. And I kept nodding. Cuz I dont what the hell he was talking about. Funny situation is it? Try to be in my shoes.

In the middle of enjoying the pleasure of the esplanade. papadom came to our table and asked angah. Is it hani, her daughter or sister. Angah answered his question ' oh ni anak saya'.. I was mothereff laughing. Then he kept asking the same question. Angah tried to convince him that hani is her daughter. Wakaka~ so funny. The thing is; angah is so petite and innocent, so papadom wasnt satisfy with the answer given.

Oh not to forget. The combodian worker. So handsome. Hakhak. But I think I tried to approach him as for example.. okey. It was not an example.. it really really happened. Huhuk. I was asking for a new tissue box because the tissue inside the box has finished. I was really confused what to call him so I 'eh eh... tissue'. Thank god the cambodian knew my body language. Agaga.. and after the combodian left us to get a new one, I was thinking that the man was so attractive. Am I not interested in malay gentlemen? It is not okay. This is teenage mind her own ' mental illness' business. I should avoid this kind of activity. In fact yeah he issssss gorgeous. I should change my appetite.

Right now my brain is blunt to tell a story. I should stop here because the environment is noisy and no tranquility.