bila diri rasa nak lari dari rumah.

hey..back. dengan rumah takda lampu. there's no light at all. feel empty inside this broken heart. there is no space in here. no. i cant find anything interesting. truthfully, im in despair. huh... its too crowded in my home. ok, there is no one actually. that is why, i said empty.

there is no home sweet home. the house that i called HOME isnt sweet anymore. i hate home. and i dont wanna live in it. i will cut myself out. grrr....

i hate myself like i love myself. yes, i did. and i almost forgot what's the meaning of family. i got one already. maybe i need more LOVE. tinggal lagi 2hari je nak bebas tak berduit. yes2!!

maybe i'll tell u bout yesterday stories. lot of attention i got from friends. shall i called it friends are EVERYTHING, maybe certain ppl wouldnt think in my own way. they have their's.

i went to sunway... yes it is. my close pal. my new pal. my happiness came. i felt so happy yesterday. boleh tak macam ni selalu... macam tak redha dengan ketentuan. but it's a fact. only god knows why.

IM SORRY QEENA .. DIDNT EXPECT IT!!

i've been there for (sunway pyramid) for the third time. not only for shopping but ice skating. there is NO ICE RINK IN MALAYSIA BESIDES SUNWAY. erm.. btw, u should go there and break some legs. rawk gila. feel so breezy that day.

i found myself when i am happy.

to my friends,
we have been together.
a lot of circumstance that we've been through as a friend.
friendship is the most valuable price that u will never buy.
search it... someday u'll need it.
i thought there is no FRIENDS in my life.
thank u God cause giving me this soft fragile heart.
i'll accept them.
i dont know where is my fault,
because they such a nice ppl.
let this memory long lasting
till my last breath...

Dear friends,
Dear God,
Dear feelings,
please...
please dont run away from me.
cause i need u when i feel cold and shiver.
i really feel lonely this time.
i scream there is no voice.

im sorry pal if i make a mistakes.
like, she said...human merely a human.
as simple as that.

belaian jiwa version plucking

apa kita punya target sem 2?

- guitar-
-writing short stories-
-lepak with roommates-
-make fun of iela,nad and dayah-
-smile for sad-
-stadi like hell-
-party aras at UB-
-happy for friends-
-keep lauging laughing-
-sleep early(i try my best)-
-beli lipton can-
-act cool-
-no more close friends-
-stay at library until 6pm-
-books books books-
-dreaming of utp-

You're like a ROCKET in my mind

CHAPTER 7: AKU KECHIK DAN KTM ADA MAMAT KURANG SOPAN (FINALE)

bye Q. kechik let's go! Balik KL. Dah lambat ni. Kau yang kene grounded later. Aku susah hati kau tahu. Jaga anak orang. Haha... kechik, aku nak mintak maaf... sebab masukkan kau dalam hal HATI aku. Thanks for being a good listener to me. I really grateful to have a friend like u. beli tiket. Lompat kat kerusi tu cepat2 sebab kechik sangat letih. Kesian nyer. K tak apa..aku jaga kau. Dia tidur masa tunggu train. Exhausted nye budak kecik ni. Kesian sangat2 kat dia. Sorry sorry sorry. Train arrived. Aku dan kechik bertindak sangat perlahan. Orang disekeliling aku semua bergerak pantas. Like there was no tomorrow for them. Tiba2 mamat ni datang kat aku. Dah la nak angkut barang2 ni. Kacau stim la mamat ni. Berangin aku.

Mamat sengal: adik, main gitar ye?

Arina: a'a, kenapa? Ada masalah?

Mamat sengal: oo takde masalah. Susah la nak jumpa perempuan suka main gitar.

(HEK ELEH, CUCUK2 AKU LAK. PENAMPAR SEKALI BARU TAHU! AKU TAK SUKA KAU KACAU AKU! LEAVE ME ALONE U FREAK!)

-like aku tak mahu layan dia dalam masa yang sama tak nak dianggap kurang ajar.

Arina: ade je perempuan main gitar. Kenapa ni?

Mamat sengal: duduk mana?

Arina: nilai. (aku dah nak blah da ni,dia macam tak notice, dengan kechik mamai2..aduhai burden me)

Mamat sengal: nilai kat mana? Abg tinggal situ. (eceh, jadi abg aku plak. Dah la cukup dengan ramah anda ye, bye. Nak shoes off)

arina: nilai 2. (aku tipu jek,dia percaya. Haha bo***.)

aku pergi tanpa nak tengok2 jenguk2 belakang kat freak tu. Like I care who is he. Rimas lelaki2 macam ni. Dalam train... kechik sambung tidur. Aduhaiii...sorry lagi. k..aku jage kau. Kau tidur la ye kawan.

P/S: KAWAN...SAHABAT TAK SAMA. SEEK FOR THEM. SURE HAPPY. -FINISHED-

You're like a ROCKET in my mind

CHAPTER 6: AKU Q KECHIK DAN A&W CENTER SEREMBAN

gelap dah ni. Nak makan mana. Next, target to A&W. Aku nak minum float Q nak makan waffle. Set! Jom... lagipun aku tak kisah nak makan mana, aku open. Like kesian gila kat Q, satu hari kehidupan dia dalam kereta. Hihi~ nak share. Tapi tak apa. Rasa macam tak berapa penting. And FYI, aku rasa aku jahat. Entah,ketam and ikan faham perasaan aku kan?(if u read this, pls text me). Like kami dah sampai tempat isi stomach tank. Q is the best driver, PARKING LUAR KOTAK LOT. She's funny sometimes. Certain people have their own specialty. I have mine too. Cari tempat duduk pun satu hal,finally duduk kat tempat selalu aku lepak ngan kawan2 aku. Yang menghadap sungai besar tuuu~~ nice. Tak nampak apa2 pun actually. ok. Makan time! Full-filled the stomach dream. Kenapa dia sedih? Aku ke punca dia macam tu? U freak arina. Aku really not in the mood back then. Sebab dia mood tengah swing, like I wanna share. Tapi tak sesuai. Even aku pun tak rasa selesa kalau cerita pasal prob sendiri. Sometimes people just need to find who is the right person to share their probs with. Aku faham kau. Tapi kau kan pelakon terbaik... kenapa tak boleh sembunyi perasaan tu dari aku? Lagipun kalau kau sembunyikan pun, aku dapat rasa, sebab aku kawan kau. Selagi kau kawan dengan aku, u can't hide anything from me. Kau pun tahu. I know who u are Q. kechik dengan float gelas besar, sangat pelik sebab dia kuat makan. Semua dia telan habis cepat. Huhu~~ kuat makan dia ni. Kenapa tak besar2? Haha... we finished. Kecuali Q and me. No appetite. Keluar dari resto pun aku lupa nak bawa keluar conney dog tu. Adoiyai... malu lagi. Q hantar aku dan kechik sampai seberang stesen ktm seremban.

P/S: Q, I REALLY ENJOYED ALL THE MOMENT WE SPEND TOGETHER. I TRY NOT TO FORGET, IT SEEMS THAT MY ALZHEIMER THING WANNA ERASE IT FROM MY MIND. I HATE THAT ERASER. REMIND ME WHEN I FORGOT,ADVICE ME WHEN IM WRONG,LOVE ME WHEN IM SPOILT. TRUST ME AND I'LL TRUST U BACK. ARE WE STILL FRIEND?

You're like a ROCKET in my mind

CHAPTER 5: AKU Q KECHIK BAM2 DAN CITY PARK IKAN GEMUK GILES

seremban 2! kami tiba!! gerai..nampak gerai..bangunan..nampak perumahan...pening aku pening!!! ooohhhh...itu dia,tasek. Lamaku tak jumpa sama kau! Apa khabar kehijauan yang diimpikan? Apa khabar ikan2 di tasek? Apa khabar wahai awan biruuu~~? Ku merinduimu. Trimas and thanks a million kat Q. AKU SAYANG KAU BTW. Macam mane aku tak terpikir nak bercanda kat tasek indah ni. Apa yang aku pikir sebentar tadi, hilang! Bagus. Lagipun aku tak suka sangat fikir. It's a big deal anyway, but because of this CITY PARK... whoaa~~ KELESSSS SKALI!

Kami parking this city's vtech vehicle dulu ye ikan. Nanti aku bagi makan. Environmentalist nak feed kamu semua after this. Tunggu ku yahhh! Jalan2 cari makan ikan. A bit discussion here and there. Emotion: Angry mad pissed off clueless undetermined felt helpless happy are killing me. Finally, i've got what I wanted. The answer and statement from her. Like, thanks again. Kau buat aku tersenyum Q. Kechik...kau teman yang sangat baik, small yet matured. Rindu kau. Rindu volleyball jugaakkk! Bam2 kau penyeri suasana sementara kami di city park. Apa lagi yang aku rasa tak cukup. Semua dah tersedia. Kami pusing2 satu tasek tuh. Semakin lama kat sini, semakin ramai orang. Banyak sangat. Ikan2! Banyak giles ikan. What type? U name it! This one was the best moment in my life. After all the sadness gone... ada saja rasa gumbire. Yeah! Im happy,satisfied? Woi gila... aku happy la. Bagi ikan makan bersama Q kechik bam2, indah sekali. Aku suka keadaan ni. Tenang. Arghh! Mamat2 seremban 2 terajang ketepi. Aku tak suka diganggu kebahagiaan sementara ini. Aku tahu sebentar lagi pasti hilang. Lenyap. Musnah. Apa lagi ayat nak diterjemahkan. Feeder pallet dah habis. Huu~~ tapi aku still ada lagi. Q bam2 and kechik dah habis, takda pallet. Jangan dekat! Aku kedekut. Hehe~ kidding. Jom target tandas sekarang. Tangan aku dah kotor sangat2,mereka juga iya! Gila laa... singki ada ketinggian. Ya benar ..kami semua ada ketinggian. Bermula aku Q bam2 kechik. Haha... berebut nak basuh tangan. Isk, tapi yang slack nyer... air perlahan sangat. Arrghh... takpa2. Sabar jep. A moment to remember: basuh tangan mereka.! Small nyer tangan. Haha... tangan bersaiz kecil bam2 Q..ohh kechik tak termasuk. Sorry. Kami berjalan semula. Senaman mulut. Bersama2 kechik, kami tak sah bergosip tanpa kartika berbuah2 la gosip. Haha... adus...aku tak ingat la conversation nak suruh aku main gitar tu. Sorry. But still aku ingat lagi bam2 cakap aku tak bawa gitar, like Q and kechik terus bersatu suara cakap, bawak la. Haha... really hillarious. Tapi dorang tak perasan. Aku je yang dengar. Haha..

it's time to jreng kreng c-40. Sebenarnya aku dah mengidam nak main kat tempat yang macam stage tu, mengadap tasik dan matahari. I like sunset. Tapi belum lagi kot. Lagu seperti biasa. Haha like sekarang aku tengah practice chord lagu aerosmith-fly away from here. Nanti la after this yuna rocket kat s2 city park. Aku hutang kau Q. nanti aku bayar ya. Grrr...mamat ni lagi! Aku tak suka dikacau terutama kawan2 aku. Lets f***ed out from here. Tak tahu malu betul. Like I dont care who they are. Anak datuk anak siapa2 la. Dorang sama saja. They are boys and mens. They're all the same. It's a nightmare to think about. They are merely the same. Dah pukul 6.30++ petang. Dah letih. Lagi teruk perut aku membawa perubahan, sangat lapar. Biar la dengan gemuk ni. Aku dah tak kisah. Banyak sangat nak makan ni..tak tahu nak makan mana. Asyik tanya aku, aku kalau boleh tak nak la buat keputusan... malu~. Hihhi (-_-)'

kami pun beransur keluar. Banyak suggestion. Dah pening. Ada satu kedai tu, like Q cakap sedap (semua sedap kalau kat dia ni) tutup. Tetiba, bam2 cakap dia nak balik. Huu~~ bosan la bam2, kenapa cepat sangat balik? Baru aja nak rasa hang out dengan kau. Apalah! Tak apa lah. Okhh..aku dah tahu rumah bam2 kat mana. Like...ade satu babak tu Q and kechik make fun of me. It just a small scene. Q tahu kan? Haha..dont wanna story bout it. Sedih. First time kau kene kan aku. Haha..~ but it's okey then,kedek2. Kau kan terkedek2. Huhu~~ marah la tu! We then....(continued)

P/S: Q,AKU DAH KALAH BUAT BUNYI AYAM PALING SEXAAYY KAT KMNS NI.

You're like a ROCKET in my mind

CHAPTER 4: AKU KECHIK DAN KOPITIAM NASIK PELIK TAKDA SELERA

i'm in agony. Kechik lapar aku pun sama lapar. Tapi kami terpaksa melancong ke public toilet first,tempat pertama dituju semasa menapak kat seremban parade. Tapikan sebenarnya... macam nak makan kat kenny rogers, starbucks, pizzahut, chicken rice shop, McD, KFC... lastly... KOPITIAM jadi taruhan. Lapar..lapar..lapar.. menarik je advertisement makcik tu buat, siap senyum. Kechik macam kene magnet, kitorang decide and buat discussion nak makan apa. So the conclusion, kita masuk dulu. Kami duduk...aku dengan perangai aku macam biasa kalau hang out with friends...jadi hyper. OK ada wifi. Lagi cun. Bukak lappy si luncai, ooo no no no! batteri nak kong. Tak apa la. Aku bagi kechik play. Rasa malas dah selimut hati aku. So, ada akak waitress datang mintak order, as usual aku cakap “ nanti jap ekh kak kitorang baru sampai.. nak decide lagi...nanti saya panggil”. Meanwhile, aku macam tak sedap duduk, tunggu cik Q datang. Really aku tak tipu... macam2 benda aku fikir. Boleh sampai aku dan kechik buat plan sendiri. Haha...kanak2 sungguh. Now, kechik tengah choose what to eat. Aku makan nasik goreng kampung dengan blueberri ape ntah while kechik makan apa yang dia nak makan(actually I forgot). Sambil tunggu makanan dan cik Q. buat onar sana onar sini. oo..makanan dah sampai. Ok, im in the middle of “makanan ape ni”. Like takda selera lansung. Dalam 20 minit tu... ada text2 dengan Q. kami tukar tempat date kami iaitu di kopitiam. Hee~~... malas nak gerak la kechik ni. Aku pun ikut jela. Anak orang ni aku tengah jaga, macam adik aku la juga.

Woi! Kedek2 dah sampai laaa.. tapi kenapa dia ke hulu ke hilir. Like tak nampak kitorang. Ooh..dia notice us la. Hek leh, on the phone rupanya. Adoiyai minah ni. Aku dah semakin gelabah. Dalam hati aku cakap “alamak haih... ape aku nak kecek kat budak sekor ni, ape nak bagitahu dia ni, ape nak jadi lepas ni, huh! Buat cool jela”. Ok dia seat. Like, 1^st thing cakap...kau dah makan? Soalan apa tu!!! urrghh... oohh,dia jawab, belum (aku rasa dia tak makan tengah hari or breakfast kot, not sure). Cakap sana cakap sini. Borak sana borak sini. Soalan terjah dari Q.,“kau ada hutang aku satu cerita”. Hahah... tersengih aku. Aku cakap,“iye”. Aku dengan susun2 ayat. Everything like moving so fast. Habis makan. Q said tempat ni tak sesuai cerita sebab kawan dia ramai kerja di kopitiam tu. Nonsense jep. Ada kaitan ke dengan cerita ni? Nope at alll.... (^_^). Q asked me nak pergi mana. Yes, dia jadi driver! Banyak tempat nak pergi ni...akhirnya di------------- (continued)